I had reached a loss of almost 40 lbs and he was right around the same... we were rocking it!! This was all in a matter of about 8 weeks. And then the unthinkable happened... (no, nobody died, lost a limb or was diagnosed with some crazy disease)... we were contacted by a casting director for Biggest Loser... SERIOUSLY!! I thought it was a joke for the first few days, I just couldn't believe that we could possibly have that opportunity together.
Once it was established that this indeed WAS legit and we set up our interview with the casting directors in Chicago, it got REAL... and we were gently advised that we might want to slow down on our weightloss and just maintain so that if we were chosen, we'd still have good losses onthe show. Makes sense, right?!?
...BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER...
We maintained for several months and were okay with that. It would have been fantastic to lose weight, but "meh, I'll do it later"... I just didn't care. I hated being fat, but I was used to it, I've been in this body my whole life and it has never been thin.
The next striking blow came when the new season of Biggest Loser started. It seriously ANGERED me to watch it at times. I wanted so badly to have that opportunity to have 100% focus on my weightloss that the pissiness and hurt feelings that I weren't chosen were destroying the progress I had made. Instead of using the show as motivation, as it should have been, I was spiteful that if I was picked I would have lost that much weight by now. Instead I started packing it back on... little by little chip by chip...
A few months later, my husband was laid off from his job. not a lay-off you come back from in a week, or a month... and indefinite lay-off which was his comany's way of saying... "it was nice, but don't hold your breath waiting for a call back".
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By the end of the stint of living off of unemployment and ramn noodles (you think I'm joking, don't you?!?)He was brought back on 16 months later, through a temp service making significantly less than he had been for the same job. His weight was right back where he started and I was... well ::BEYOND:: I was not only back up to where I was before MPMU... I was 20 lbs over...
I was devistated.... and managed to slowlly drop 10 of it, literally over the course of 6 months. Depression was not a good companion, not a chum to have by my side and I felt it growing more and more over the course of the last years but figured I could snap myself out of it... yah, right! So, that brings us up to date... I am 5 weeks into dealing with my depression and I feel like a different person... I feel like I have a life worth living and even caring about again. I don't break into tears at the drop of a hat... but I could if I needed to. It's a HUGE change... What more perfect way could there be to start this journey anew? A new spring in my step, a REAL smile on face, and a fire burning so strong that I can't help but to succeed.
So, 5 days after this new journey of weightloss, I am happy to say I am 6 pounds down... SIX! :) I am counting calories and making sure I keep all of my intake in check, i.e., fat, sodium, etc... I need to add the REAL exercise in, not just chores around the house, but at least I'm moving even more than I was six weeks ago.
Beyond my weightloss, today has held an extra great gift for me... While looking through some success stories via before and after pics on My Food Diary . I happened across a guy who was around the same starting weight as were my husband is. I know my husband DOESN'T have to join me, but my oh my, is it much easier when you've got a partner on the journey... When he saw the guy's progress he was wowed. I think that is one of the best motivations you can have, seeing some one who was built like you when they started, being successful... He's in... We are on this journey together again and I couldn't be happier. I've got that extra wind back in my sails by having him at my side in this.
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